I spend day and night with my cousin’s family. I try to be strong for his parents and siblings because their suffering is simply unimaginable. I try to be efficient and take care of everything they need and it makes me feel good to know that the family trusts me. It took me two months to realize that I am also not in a good state emotionally. Today I understand that therapy is the only place where I feel I am allowed to talk about myself and what I am going through and feeling since his abduction.